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Fidelis

A Memoir

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In 1998 Teresa Fazio signed up for the Marine Corps' ROTC program to pay her way through MIT. After the United States was attacked on September 11, 2001, leading to the War on Terror, she graduated with a physics degree into a very different world, owing the Marines four years of active duty. At twenty-three years old and five foot one, Fazio was the youngest and smallest officer in her battalion; the combined effect of her short hair, glasses, and baggy camo was less Hurt Locker than Harry Potter Goes to War. She cut an incongruous figure commanding more experienced troops in an active war zone, where vulnerability was not only taboo but potentially lethal.
In this coming-of-age story set in the early days of Operation Iraqi Freedom, Fazio struggles with her past, her sense of authority, and her womanhood. Anger stifles her fear and uncertainty. A forbidden affair placates her need for love and security. But emptiness, guilt, and nightmares plague Fazio through her deployment—and follow her back home.
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      July 1, 2020
      An ex-Marine officer's account of her deployment to Iraq, the challenges she faced as a female platoon leader, and the illicit "quasi-relationship" she began with a married fellow officer. Fazio joined the Marines in the late 1990s on a ROTC scholarship that paid for the college education her parents could not afford. "The Marine Corps looked badass," she writes; with a strong desire to prove herself, she thought the Corps would be a perfect fit. She attended MIT, spent months training as a communications officer, and then received orders to deploy to Iraq. The "youngest and shortest officer in the battalion," Fazio was keenly aware of the significance of her mission, and she wanted to show others, especially Iraqi women, that she was "making a difference" as the member of a fighting team. She quickly learned that life as a female Marine was difficult. One female staff sergeant told her that among male Marines, a woman was either "a bitch, a dyke, or a ho." Fazio never played up her femininity because she saw herself as a "warrior" who understood the double standard that punished women for any expression of sexuality. Then she met Jack, a chief warrant officer involved in mortuary affairs, and her attraction to him was immediate. The two began spending time together, keeping their relationship "mostly chaste" out of fear of being discovered and court-martialed. When their tours of duty ended, both returned to California, where Fazio was forced to come to terms with the fact that Jack was a war-damaged man whose promise to divorce his wife would never become reality. Compelling for the conflict it depicts between honor and love, Fazio's book offers a deeply personal perspective on gender issues in the male-dominated world of the Marine Corps. A candid and insightful memoir.

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